Cute boy from floor 5...

...rocking a pink striped shirt and white pants. *blush*

Photoshoot

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Yet another successful photoshoot with Brandon Anderson + friends. More on my Flickr site. He looks like Ben Affleck in this shot :)

Sleeping visitor

I discovered this little one sleeping on my window sill right where my laptop is. She's been hanging around the rooftops within the past week. Guardian angel? :)

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My stomach is against me today.

IMAF

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Another batch of film developed yesterday evening. Photos of the IMAF festival that I attended this past Saturday. It was a blast! I'll post some more shots later tonight when I get home.

PJ and I are hanging out today. Hurrah!

Reborn

I am so grateful at life right now. New job, new outlook, new respect for life, new faith, and (soon) new apartment. I gave my deposit for my new apartment and I'll be signing a lease and moving in on the 7th of July. Did I mention I am so grateful??

I feel so refreshed, like someone broke the chains that were holding me back and weighing me down. I am so happy. I can't explain it. I smile all the time. I cry more tears of joy than I do of sorrow. My eyes have been opened and my heart filled with love.

Positive

Positive thoughts, positive thoughts, positive thoughts.

I put in my application today and I'll know by Friday if I'm approved.

Positive thoughts, positive thoughts, positive thoughts.

It will be fine. I know it.

Positive thoughts, positive thoughts, positive thoughts.

Evening

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PJ, Ray, Bethy, Wolfy and I ate dinner at the new Tappas place on Ohio and Delaware called Barcelona. It was really tasty and overwhelming with all the food and wine. I loved it. Afterwards we took a stroll downtown and took fun cell phone photos. I really need to get my pocket cam soon. As soon as I get a check from Greg Z I'm going to buy the Fuji f40, I've decided.

Tonight really brought me out of my bad mood. I found the apartment I want, but there are some hurdles. I'll be sad if I don't get it because it's perfect for me, but if I don't- 'ce la vie'. It will be ok. I'll survive.

I'm crossing my fingers though.

Gah

Why do I become such a weak person sometimes. I just want to cry.

Body Image

I don't know how I feel about my body. Some days I love the way I look, other days I loath it and wish I never went outside. Where did this all come from. It's so easy to blame fashion magazins, but I still buy them. I think it's more than that. Psychological? Maybe even genetic?

I came across a website that was pro-anorexia yesterday and it frighted me that young girls actually enjoyed starving themselves so they can look like a skeleton. And they found it beautiful!

Ridiculous.